with my new tattoo (done at the expo if you didnt know)
it actually really sucked pain wise, but it is beautiful, as usual, Jasmin done an amazing job.

BUT, now that I have it, what I planned to get on the other side in the same spot I just dont think will look right unfortunately :( so will have to find a new position for the portraits and then come up with another idea for the other side, I like things to be symmetrical and matching so think this will be a better idea, just sucks that the idea i’ve had for the front of my thighs for well over a year and a half now will have to wait until the next piece is done

arghhhhh, no idea when that will be either because 1. I have no idea what I would be happy with there and 2. Jasmin is so far away :( I refuse to be tattooed by someone else though (except for the portraits im getting, already know the artist that will be doing them)

anyways, just had to ramble, my mind has been in overdrive since sunday over this

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I got in with my tattooist (who moved to perth last year) for the tattoo expo, ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I cant get what i wanted to get next because thats going to be a long process and obviously cant be done within one sitting, especially when she has a million people trying to book in with her and she only had 5 spots available! 

I have had actual anxiety over this since hmmmm november or earlier, because I was convinced there was no way I would get in with her because of how many friggen people want appointments, it sounds extreme, but I just cant bring myself to be tattooed by anyone else (apart from a couple of pieces I have planned for the next year or so, who I have artists already picked out for)

wah wah wahhhhh -happy tears

I now need to pull $900 out of my ass, its also 2 weeks after soundwave and 1 week after my daughters birthday and car rego, but theres no way I was going to miss out, I had to max out my credit card to get my sleeve finished before she moved and this is no different lol

anyways ^_^ EXCITEMENT!!!!!!

I’ll worry about the debt later….

This is so fucked. If I have to go through what I’ve just been through again, I will not make it out alive, no friggen way am I going through that again.

For as long as I can remember, I have gone absolutely crazy over tybalt, especially his teeth. Omfg yum

that someone would try and compete with me about what im going through right now

especially when its a completely different situation 

no one other than myself even knows the extent of what ive been going through

and could you image being put to sleep and having operations through your fucking genitals

can you imagine not just the pain, but the anxiety something like that would cause

REAL REAL REALLLLL nice hey

I’m not even anywhere near the end of this ordeal, ive been told that a year from now I could still be in pain like this

I almost fucking died (no word of an exaggeration) and I have people trying to out do me with pain etc, get fucked, this is not a fucking competition, I would give anything to be healthy again and to actually be able to look after my kids.

and to top it off, I have over 50% chance of developing more kidney stones yearly for the rest of my life, so before you open your fucking mouth, think about it, and think how you would be coping mentally and physically when you have been in pain that is no doubt worse than labour for over 4 weeks straight, with not ONE ounce of relief, not even one fucking second.

sorry for the rant, Im just so upset and you cant say anything on facebook

no one has any fucking idea